Holding Back

I was once lost and confused,

However, now I see past the haze,

My mistakes constantly remind me,

Of how much further I have left to grow,

Time was my greatest enemy,

It made me more bitter with each passing year

 

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Now I’m stuck in slow motion,

Just dying for a taste of her love potion,

The stars shine down on me,

When you look at the sky,

You’ll see what I see,

I guess you were right when you said I look lonely,

Don’t you know I’m just looking for a place that’s homely,

I’ve taken a back-seat approach to my life,

Hence all the turmoil and strife,

Fighting just to give in,

Silence my escape from them

 

My motivation seems to be lacking,

Do you find yourself asking,

Where is he going?

What kinds of seeds is he sowing?

Did I tell you about my sense of direction,

Maybe the fact that I don’t have one,

Planning ahead seems to baffle me,

Living my life outside of reality,

If home is where the heart is,

Then my heart is in Ohio,

It never left from there,

Just my physical being,

Especially when all I have to go on,

Are the memories of what was,

But can never be

 

I’m tired of feeling useless,

I’m trying to find my purpose,

Why is that so hard for me?

I can not settle for mediocrity,

So hard not to give in to apathy,

I live for the times when I go home,

This road I’m on seems cold,

Am I doing what is right?

 

[Chorus]

Now I’m stuck in slow motion,

Just dying for a taste of her love potion,

The stars shine down on me,

When you look at the sky,

You’ll see what I see,

I guess you were right when you said I look lonely,

Don’t you know I’m just looking for a place that’s homely,

I’ve taken a back-seat approach to my life,

Hence all the turmoil and strife,

Fighting just to give in,

Silence my escape from them

 

How can I help anyone else,

If I can’t even help myself,

I put myself through so much misery,

I don’t even remember how to speak my mind,

The words I want to say never come to fruition,

Just some lines tattered and broken,

My thoughts left unspoken,

The seal breaking and cracking,

When will it ever be enough?

I just want to be loved,

I think I more than deserve it