My Regret

Four years long gone,
I gave four years of my life to you,
Waiting on something that never came to be,
Did I waste my time?
Was my father right?
I gave everything to end up with nothing,
Just a memory you still linger,
And when I find something to make me smile,
It is taken from me abruptly,
I seem to only find dead-ends,
Did I live my life in sin?
Maybe it's time for me to grow up,
I know I'm such a loser,
I'm twenty-two and without a clue,
I'm just trying to get by,
Because all my plans included you,
So forgive me for being a little bitter,
I'm not blaming you,
Obviously I was chasing an empty dream,
I just wish that I'd never said,
That I love you.