To Ease Your Pain

I've written down my frustration before,
My anger to the point of tears,
But the end result was always the same.
I was upset that I couldn't end all your years of tribulation,
You tell me everything is fine,
But I always know better,
I can see your world,
Because it is part of mine.


You feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders,
But I'm here to relieve your pain,
You feel like the only way out is death,
But I've been here waiting,
Telling you that I have your back,
If only you would give in and stop being so stubborn,
Let me through and I'll show you,
What life really is about.

It's hard to sit back and watch,
When I see you crying inside,
I want to take away your problems,
I want to take away the consequences,
But you've put up these walls,
And I can't find my way in,
So I stay silent hoping for the best.

You feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders,
But I'm here to relieve your pain,
You feel like the only way out is death,
But I've been here waiting,
Telling you that I have your back,
If only you would give in and stop being so stubborn,
Let me through and I'll show you,
What life really is about.

Fight To Live On

So I thought I had my life in check,
But the things you do behind my back,
Bring me down,
Because I would have never put you through this hell,
Like you do me,
and God only knows why,
I hide this deep inside.


I let you get the best of me,
I ignored what was happening,
In order for this suffering,
To feel less like dying,
Because you can hide your secrets,
But I will always know the truth,
Why did you,
Stab me in the heart?


I'm breaking into pieces,
Because my world was falling from beneath me,
And all I thought to hold true was forsaken by your actions,
That left me fending off my dreams,
Fighting for control,
Left alone,
Praying for relief,
Fighting against this predicament.

I let you get the best of me,
I ignored what was happening,
In order for this suffering,
To feel less like dying,
Because you can hide your secrets,
But I will always know the truth,
Why did you,
Stab me in the heart?

Somehow I'll make it through,
Somehow I'll make it through,
Somehow I'll make it through,

Even without you.

Falsetto

I'm not the best with words,
Sometimes in my confusion,
My emotions pour out of me,
Like the blood from my open wounds,
I created this mess,
and now I have to live with this regret.


I put on this fake smile,
I hold strong,
I've held on for so long,
Trying to pull through,
Sleepless nights alone,
Reaching for an answer,
Wishing on a star,
But I'm not sure that I'll find,
The reason for my feeling,
I'm sinking deeper,
Screaming for sympathy.


Hurt turned to anger,
Anger turned to hate,
And I've learned that no matter what I do or say,
It's not gonna change the fact,
That this is how it is,
Broken,
Bruised and numb,
This pain I hold inside,
Is a part of life.

I put on this fake smile,
I hold strong,
I've held on for so long,
Trying to pull through,
Sleepless nights alone,
Reaching for an answer,
Wishing on a star,
But I'm not sure that I'll find,
The reason for my feeling,
I'm sinking deeper,
Screaming for sympathy.

Begging for Forgiveness

I know I've made some horrific mistakes,
But you were always there to save me,
And that is one reason,
Why I miss you so much,
Now let me return the favor in this song,
Begging for Forgiveness.


I've ran and hid,
I locked my heart away,
And I am the cause of why I hurt so much,
I just pray that I can make-up,
For the pain I've brought,
I'm on my knees,
Begging for Forgiveness.

I want to be so close,
But I always push so far,
I was lost in my troubles
And I thought no cure could be found,
You held the key,
The answer lay in front of me,
And now I see,
The path is in sight,
I'm crying,
I'm screaming,
Begging for forgiveness.

I've ran and hid,
I locked my heart away,
And I am the cause of why I hurt so much,
I just pray that I can make-up,
For the pain I've brought,
I'm on my knees,
Begging for Forgiveness.

Forgive me please,
I'm gonna set things straight,
No matter the cost,
I'll do whatever it takes,
Begging for Forgiveness,
Understand my confusion.

I've ran and hid,
I locked my heart away,
And I am the cause of why I hurt so much,
I just pray that I can make-up,
For the pain I've brought,
I'm on my knees,
Begging for Forgiveness.

Time

Sometimes I watch the sunset alone,
Because when earth meets sky,
Time stands still,
So I breathe in the moment,
Wishing I could just share it,
This dream I live,
Easily becomes a nightmare.


I've been betrayed so much in life,But yet I still turn my cheek,
Just to get abused some more,
And I'm tired of the hurt,
I know it isn't right,
Because I've been through enough,
More than anyone knows,
When will someone understand?

Maybe my weakness is that I care too much,
Because it seems that when it comes to love,
I love too much,
I know too much,
And I fight for no reason,
To keep people in my life,
So why do I even try?

I've been betrayed so much in life,
But yet I still turn my cheek,
Just to get abused some more,
And I'm tired of the hurt,
I know it isn't right,
Because I've been through enough,
More than anyone knows,
When will someone understand?

Memories are the death of a dream,
Just a shattered picture,
Broken by time.

To Feel Alive

No matter how many tears I shed,
It can't heal these wounds,
No matter how hard I try,
I can't seem to fulfill me,
Because I'm left feeling empty.


My life has been full of tragedy,
And when I get my hopes up,
They've always been shot down,
So I'm left wondering,
What did I do,
To deserve all the pain I feel,
When all I ever try,
Is to help someone else,
Feel alive.


I may be an emotional mess,
But I have a heart that beats,
And two eyes to see,
That my life shouldn't be this way.


My life has been full of tragedy,
And when I get my hopes up,
They've always been shot down,
So I'm left wondering,
What did I do,
To deserve all the pain I feel,
When all I ever try,
Is to help someone else,
Feel alive.

Sometimes it seems,
That the only way to feel relief,
Is by dying inside,
Turn myself off to the world,
Because no one wants the truth,
They always look out for number one,
Well Me,
I put myself at two.

My life has been full of tragedy,
And when I get my hopes up,
They've always been shot down,
So I'm left wondering,
What did I do,
To deserve all the pain I feel,
When all I ever try,
Is to help someone else,
Feel alive.

Confessions of My Heart

Love was what I sought,
But found that love,
Is an invention of an idea of perfection,
Because when you've obtained it,
Life means everything.


When I hold you close,The times that meant the most,
After the pain I hid,
Each and every day,
You came to me,
And made everything right,
So when I lost you,
I lost a piece of myself,
Because you saved me from death,
You gave me a reason for living,
And I'll never forget that feeling,
Even as time fades away.

I don't mean to break you down,
These are just my thoughts,
That resound within my head,
And a confession from my heart,
I hope you find happiness,
Because you deserve the world,
Because for one second of time,
You changed my life,
And I felt purpose once again.

When I hold you close,
The times that meant the most,
After the pain I hid,
Each and every day,
You came to me,
And made everything right,
So when I lost you,
I lost a piece of myself,
Because you saved me from death,
You gave me a reason for living,
And I'll never forget that feeling,
Even as time fades away.

Bruised

I'm broken,
I'm shattered,
But I grin and bare,
With every step,
Another faltered line,
A simple waste of time,
A framed picture,
A heart set still,
The battle for life,
Now fought alone.

Now I'm trying,
To live for the future,
But I'm stuck hiding,
Hiding from my past,
I've been haunted,
By all my tragic memories,
thoughts have brought me down on my knees,
Begging for a release.

I'll be sure to never make a promise,
Because promises can't be kept,
I've lost sight of my dreams,
Because I can't see,
These tears are covering,
The eyes that betrayed me,
I've gone numb,
Because you were everything,
Everything to me.

Simple Gifts

How can it be,
That I still feel this way,
If love is forever,
Then why does forever feel so far away?


You've done so much for me,
And I never had the time,
To give back what you so easily gave to me.

Whenever our eyes meet,
It's like we never left,
So I long for another day,
To set things straight.

The one greatest gift,
Was the taste of your lips,
I've never forgotten,
What each kiss meant to me,
And what I would do for a second chance,
To hear you say the words I've missed so much,
"I Love You"

I had hoped that we'd always be,
Because I've never been happier,
Than when you were in my arms.

The one greatest gift,
Was the taste of your lips,
I've never forgotten,
What each kiss meant to me,
And what I would do for a second chance,
To hear you say the words I've missed so much,
"I Love You"

Consequences of a Lie

I took a chance and lost,
I thought this was right,
But I find,
Things aren't this way by design,
Because what I found,
Was that this wasn't real.


Now I'm stuck trying to find my way,
My heart and head collide,
My world dies and I've lost sight,
I hope you can help,
Because the loneliness I feel draws near,
I've left the light on,
But I'm far past gone.

Now I'm alone again,
Running from my past,
Wishing I could have something,
Something I can't have,
I've fallen into darkness,
Reaching for the light.

You were the fire within me and now it's gone,
I've replaced my heart with stone,
And I've become numb,
To the four letter word L-O-V-E, love,
I've been betrayed.

My Addiction

I'm caught up in the act,
Unsure what move to make next,
Running out of ideas,
Clinging to memories of days passed,
Fighting this battle,
Leaving with scars intact,
I hide from this addiction,
That seems to hold me back.


All I can do,
Is hope I'll make it through,
Life is full of obscurities,
The path we follow is never easy,
And the difficulty becomes hard to bare alone,
So we look to things that force a feeling upon us,
The thought of being sober,
Is such a waste of time,
When I could get this cheap high,
But what I know is,
These drugs come with a price.


I'm a broken soul,
Of a man once sought,
To seek in life the goodness in everything,
But what I've found,
Is that things never turn out,
No matter how much planning,
Goes into life.

The Pain of Life

During these times that we live,
The fires from below scorch our feet,
We're only inches from heaven,
Yet we live like we're in hell,
Exploitation of penetration,
Dissection of tension,
We use each other to get ahead,
If only we would work together.


In a dog eat dog world,
We struggle to survive,
In just a moment,
Just a second of time,
We could turn life around,
Help each other,
Never learning my side,
The pain of losing is hard to subside,
When all we're wanting is,
Happiness!


It seems to come so easy,
To those who deny, the way life is,
To be true to yourself,
And make life,
The way it should be.

Divided by Friday: October

Yet it hurts so bad,
Just sitting here alone,
And all I've ever wanted,
Was something of my own.


But everything always changes,
It changes,
Yeah nothing ever seems to stay the same.


And as these days in late October,
Are starting to get colder,
The stories that you told her,
Makes us wish we didn't have to grow older,
And leave our youth behind us,
Will love ever find us?
Or are we stuck here on our own?


And I have come to face the facts,
(That once you're gone you can't come back)
You can't count on tomorrow,
(It might not come),
(My sorrow)
I know it's from you,
And I reminisce.

And as these days in late October,
Are starting to get colder,
The stories that you told her,
Makes us wish we didn't have to grow older,
And leave our youth behind us,
Will love ever find us?
Or are we stuck here on our own?
 
As the moonlight shines,
Through my window blinds,
And the stars outside,
Can do all but hide,
I know this won't last,
We grow up so fast,
And the ones that we love,
Fade away...

And for now I'll close my eyes
(Why can't I...)
And I'll dream of lies,
(Give in...)
That seems so kind,
(There's something inside me...)
I'll wake up to find,
(And I admit...)
Another tear falling down,
(I probably...)
As the rain hits the ground,
(Did miss a couple...)
And you know that you've found,
(Times before...)
That perfect sound in you,
(And now I'm sure)

As these days in late October,
Continue to get colder,
I wonder if I told her,
How I felt enough today,
Cause tomorrow is too late,
You should never hesitate,
To tell them...
To tell them...

And I wonder,
(This is the end...)
Can you hear me?
(I can't forget...)
To some other,
(Where I came from...)
Can you see me?
(You're always there...)
I'm falling down,
(Inside I loved you...)

I keep falling down into,
(I can't forget...)
The memories of you,
(My thoughts of you)
End of you.



And as these days in late October,
They get colder,
It's over,
It's OVER!

To Run Away?

Everyday there is war within me,
My heart being the battle ground,
And along the way,
I seem to make mistakes,
Following the line,
Drawn in my mind,
When my eyes have decieved me,
I fall back on my instincts,
I call out your name.


The path I've taken,
Leads to self-destruction,
But the feeling gets me closer,
And takes the pain away,
These tears are worthless,
Sometimes I sense my prayers are in vain,
Because what I dream is so selfish,
My only wish is that you stay strong,
And follow through.

We fear that which is unknown,
The hand of life that touches us and sends us joy,
Blinds our senses,
Controls our every move,
Whispering subliminal thoughts,
Ones that tend to haunt,
So we can run away,
We run away from all we know.

Heartbreak Kid

This love was never real,
All that came was irreputable,
There was no sensation,
You're too young to feel like that,
Or at least that's what they told Heartbreak Kid.


You'll find someone else someday they say,
She says you deserve better,
When she was all you ever wanted,
She moved on to someone else,
When you can't shake this love she forsake,
Losing sleep over a picture,
That secretly was close to your heart

Heartbreak kid got a tattoo,
One that told the story of his passion for this girl,
That he would've given his life for,
Because he never thought he'd care that much,
To die to save a life,
Where the fear was worth the cost,
To protect that whom he held dear,
Heartbreak lost again...

You'll find someone else someday they say,
She says you deserve better,
When she was all you ever wanted,
She moved on to someone else,
When you can't shake this love she forsake,
Losing sleep over a picture,
That secretly was close to your heart

Return to Me

I am so appalled,
Are you so inclined to ignore me?
What I say seems to evaporate,
My thoughts behind these words,
Tell the story of a man,
Destined to die with a broken heart.


You were the fire within my soul,
The sunshine parting the clouds,
On a rainy day,
You were the wind in my face,
While I waited it out,
With the hope of love,
But left with dread.


Is there still a chance,
That this could be,
Something we both regret,
I dream of you every night,
Wishing you were by my side.

You were the fire within my soul,
The sunshine parting the clouds,
On a rainy day,
You were the wind in my face,
While I waited it out,
With the hope of love,
But left with dread.

You were the fire,
That burnt deep within me,
You were the power,
That taught me what life is about,
You were the absence of pain,
Saving me from what I was to become,
And now you're gone...

Memories

All I have left are these memories of you and I,
I remember the time when you came to me crying,
And I held you tightly,
And time after time I was late to work,
Just to have five more minutes with you.

Everything was perfect to me,
Nothing seemed to matter more,
My world was you,
You were the inspiration to better myself,
And when I hung my head,
Eyes of desperation, frustration,
And in need of justification,
You were the glue,
That held my heart together.

At the top of the hill.
Thoughts of hope and bliss alone,
Praying things would turn right,
At the campfire,
Resting your head on mine,
Looking at the stars,
Seeing destiny infused with the light,
My life was brightened,
And I had purpose again.

Washed Away

I've been given a clean slate,
With a life to renew,
If only we'd have met now,
Things would be different,
I am not who I was,
I've changed.


I've dedicated myself,
To the dream of you and me,
What I felt I could never lose,
And unfortunately I'm flying solo,
This darkened road I traveled on,
Trying to make it by,
Taking one step at a time,
Hoping life just flies by.


Because with you,
Times stands still,
Without you I suffer and bare,
The weight of my world,
Bringing me down on my knees,
I hold my own,
I hold my own.


I've dedicated myself,
To the dream of you and me,
What I felt I could never lose,
And unfortunately I'm flying solo,
This darkened road I traveled on,
Trying to make it by,
Taking one step at a time,
Hoping life just flies by.

One Year Too Long

All that I used to know,
Is no longer so,
People wonder why I still hurt,
When it was so long ago,
And sometimes I contemplate why,
I hold these feelings inside.


I do it for you,
I do it for the emptiness I hide within,
Because it is better than feeling nothing,
I can't replace you,
I can't forget you,
I can't deny you,
No matter how hard I try.


Your happiness has always been,
My number one priority,
I sometimes wonder,
How it would be if it were still you and me,
Rather than you and him,
The thought plagues me,
Because even though it's been a year,
My love never died.

Outcry

God,
I found myself in a mess,
I have to confess,
That this is destroying me,
All I seem to encounter is suffering,
I can't seem to win,
My trust has been shattered,
My thoughts turned to sin,
I'm afraid of what I'll become,
It seems that I have lost it all.


My future seems so bleak,
I can't call this living,
I feel defeated,
It's like a disease that can't be treated,
I'm not sure what to do,
I have no clue whom I should turn to,
I'm an empty-shell,
Of the man I used to be

My head spins in circles,
My wallet empty as can be,
My heart filled with anguish,
My eyes drenched with tyranny,
Blinding my path,
But I pray to you,
Hoping this will pull me through,
Because I can't do this alone,
I know that I need you.

It seems as if I'm alone,
Making mistake after mistake,
I'm only nineteen,
But this world is unforgiving,
Smiles are replaced by knives,
Because people would rather stab you in the back,
Then to try and save your life.

My future seems so bleak,
I can't call this living,
I feel defeated,
It's like a disease that can't be treated,
I'm not sure what to do,
I have no clue whom I should turn to,
I'm an empty-shell,
Of the man I used to be

Life in Hind-Sight

I'm always wandering about,
Wondering when I'm gonna catch a break,
Always look on the look-out,
For something to shape my life,
Sometimes I feel alone,
But I know I have to continue on,
I'm just praying,
That my day will come sooner than later,
Until then all I have,
Is my hope.

(Chorus)
I've had my dreams stolen from me,
I've had those closest to me run-away,
I hid my heart,
I closed my eyes,
I waited patiently,
I pulled through hell,
Even when it hurt to breathe,
But now I see things differently,
So I'm trying to cope,
One day at a time.

I wish to erase the past,
So I look to the future,
I fight for what I believe,
This is my right,
To choose the way I live.

Gleaming

The sun burns red,
After every word she said,
Making me wish that I were dead,
It seemed flowers lost time,
Forgetting to bloom,
Shunning the sunlight,
So the clouds blocked the golden radiance,
Pouring darkness unto the land,
Leaving me alone,
Fighting for every breath left.


(Chorus)Then someone came,
Made me re-think,
Making the sunshine once again,
Even though we were miles apart,
No matter how distant we become,
Fate seemed to intervene,
And we met face to face,
No words were spoken,
But our eyes met and I felt whole once again.

I never knew I could fall so easily again,
When my memories of love were misconstrued,
But with every thought,
The deeper it became,
For she reminded me,
That I am who I am,
And that I,
Can love again...

Open

A day away,
A chance for simplicity,
To truly understand,
We must first,
Give in.


(Chorus)We always fight,
We push for the hard way,
When if we would just open up,
Everything will fall into place,
This race called life,
Could be so much easier,
If we'd just open up.

Just think,
If we were all honest,
How much better would this world be?
If we all would let go of our feelings,
Look past the differences,
And come together,
For the benefit of mankind.

(Chorus)
We always fight,
We push for the hard way,
When if we would just open up,
Everything will fall into place,
This race called life,
Could be so much easier,
If we'd just open up.

Delusional

Ever since we met,
Every time I talk to you,
Whenever I see your eyes I melt inside,
I tell myself that you are the best,
I feel as if you're the one,
You're so perfect in every way,
I'd wait forever and a day,
Just for you.

(Chorus)
I mean every word I say,
I'd do anything to make your day,
I know you so well,
And you know the real me,
I want to spend my time,
Showing you how much I love you.

I think about you everyday,
There isn't a moment that goes by,
When you aren't on my mind,
One year,
Five Months,
And I have loved every minute of it,
I only hope you'll be mine.

(Chorus)
I mean every word I say,
I'd do anything to make your day,
I know you so well,
And you know the real me,
I want to spend my time,
Showing you how much I love you.

A Stab to the Heart

Why do you choose,
To refuse my point of view,
Why do you believe the lies,
That lead to my ultimate demise?
You think I hate you,
So you fire your words,
That become daggers that pierce my heart,
when you fail to find,
Is that in fact I'm still in love with you.


(Chorus)
All I ever wanted to do,
Was to be given another chance,
A last kiss,
One last chance,
Just a chance to hold your hand,
To hold you in my arms again,
To never let you go,
Behind the lines,
Behind my false smile,
I was dying to be by your side.


I hid my feelings deep within,
Because I didn't want to show my pain,
And make you hurt and cry,
I prayed that you'd be happy,
Prayed that someone would love you,
Love you like I do,
You re-opened my wounds,
When they had just begun to heal,
Watching me bleed,
Pouring my hear out.

(Chorus)
All I ever wanted to do,
Was to be given another chance,
A last kiss,
One last chance,
Just a chance to hold your hand,
To hold you in my arms again,
To never let you go,
Behind the lines,
Behind my false smile,
I was dying to be by your side.

Rememberance

Love,
Why does a four letter word mean so much,
And hurt more than anything else?
It causes a war within the heart,
and causes you to become blind,
We search through life for it,
But we suffer the pain first.


(chorus)
I don't blame you for leaving me,
I know that sometimes I'm just too much work,
I'm not mad at you,
I'm just sad because I cared for you,
More than anything,
I needed you more than anyone,
But you have to do what is best for you,
Although I will always miss you,
I know things will never be the same.


When I sleep,
Close my eyes and dream,
All I can do is think of you,
And wish things were like yesterday,
I'll never be able to move on,
No matter how harsh your words are,
I will always feel the same,
As the day you were mine.

(chorus)
I don't blame you for leaving me,
I know that sometimes I'm just too much work,
I'm not mad at you,
I'm just sad because I cared for you,
More than anything,
I needed you more than anyone,
But you have to do what is best for you,
Although I will always miss you,
I know things will never be the same.

Memoirs from A Life Once Lost:

I'm stuck in my thoughts,
Memories flooding my head,
I don't know what I want in life,
Or where I will be years away,
I seem to question everything,
Even my own mentality,
I've tried to feel,
Even though I was numb,
The pain from my past,
Haunts me with a flame.


In life we learn to fall,
No way to break through it all,
Time just seems to slip away,
I no longer know what words that I can say,
To change everything around,
I've circled the drain,
At some point in my life,
Now I'm just praying that I'll no longer,
Feel alone.


I'll fake a smile,
While hiding these tears,
I'll follow the trend,
The pain is hard to swallow,
When I'm choking on tyranny,
And bleeding from scars left upon me,
A broken heart,
A shattered dream,
Memories burnt to ash,
A solemn promise,
An oath to humanity,
I'll follow and learn to breathe,
On My Own...

If Life Gives You Lemons, Then Give It Hell

The  way things seem to turn out for me,
Are down a path I could not forsee,
And even though this isolation crushes my sanity,
I have to fight on with a little bit of integrity,
I seem to find myself swimming in the past,
It was the only thing to look back on to find out why,
Nice guys like me finish last.

(Chorus)
Now I must finish what I've started,
I've been at this for far too long,
The only thing I've wished is to realize my dreams,
And maybe to have someone stand with me,
Because this loneliness within my heart,
Has caused me to feel empty and torn apart,
Which I can no longer take,
Because it's drowning me.

Maybe this is all of my fault,
These are based off decisions I've already made,
Moving for a girl wasn't the best of ideas,
But she was my one love,
She became my life,
But I guess I was unworthy,
Because she left so early.

(Chorus)
Now I must finish what I've started,
I've been at this for far too long,
The only thing I've wished is to realize my dreams,
And maybe to have someone stand with me,
Because this loneliness within my heart,
Has caused me to feel empty and torn apart,
Which I can no longer take,
Because it's drowning me.


Obviously babe I'm not the same, why?
I had to learn to live without out you and I have,
But guess what?
I can't forget your face because it haunts my dreams,
So I have to live with the memories,
Fully implanted in my brain,
I can't just toss you away,
Especially because you were the answer to my biggest prayer.


Do you remember being my life-line?
This love for you won't seem to die,
and it pains me so much inside,
Because it tortures my soul and won't let loose,
Creating a void within me,
Empty as the possibility of you and I becoming one,
Because we will be one and two,
Forever it seems.

(Chorus)
Now I must finish what I've started,
I've been at this for far too long,
The only thing I've wished is to realize my dreams,
And maybe to have someone stand with me,
Because this loneliness within my heart,
Has caused me to feel empty and torn apart,
Which I can no longer take,
Because it's drowning me.

The Deciever

I return to all i have ever known,
it might have been easier if i'd flown,
i left to say goodbye,
because it seems time was lost,
and i'd became a distant memory,
i always do this to me,
I can't fight this mentality,

Your name resounds within my head,
and sometimes i feel brain dead,
because i never think of me,
I've always lived for you,
and then i fled from this place,
I'm sorry everyone,
There was too much tryanny to take,
I needed an escape,
I love you all,
But I gotta make something of myself,
Life's taught me that love,
is impossible to achieve,

Now in a stupor,
out of options,
i turn to my writing,
it seems like im always manipulated,
it's easy to play tricks on the insolent,
this is the darkness i bare,
the darkness i'd rather not share,

what's wrong with me?
why does everything i see,
have to remind me of you?
There's this emptiness within my heart,
Because i can't tell you apart,
You know who you are,
even though you've deceived me,
I for once saw through your wall,

why does this feeling remain?
Why must it still linger,
I've given everything,
so guess what I left with nothing,
So from nothing I must make something,
even if i force myself to be alone,
for this life i must atone,
i'm writing to free my mind,
this song lost in time,
a peak into my soul,
the only thing i've ever known,

i keep fighting,
i can't stop writing,
it's like these thoughts,
fuel an addiction,
of a dream that will never be,
it's a hell i must live each day,
but it's of my choosing,

for God so loved the world,
he gave his only son,
as a sacrifice for all mankind,
i feel his pain,
i feel the world on my shoulders,
sometimes i'm not sure which way to go,
i'm trying to find my light,
outta sight,
outta mind,
baby you just don't understand,
i feel what you feel,
or maybe i'm just plain crazy,

something resides inside,
that won't let this go,
because things don't make sense,
hunni i just want the truth,
i know your secret,
i fell in love with you undercover,
with absolutely no rhyme or reason,
so you have to be one and the same,
or maybe hunni i'm just clinically insane,

i've never forgotten what you said,
it's just hard to keep these promises,
because i can't grin and stare,

What is my purpose?
where is my direction,
this is just a self reflection,
because i never stood so low,

Don't judge me,
i don't want the pitty,
this is what i chose,
and i'm going to live with it,
maybe i'm lacking some sanity,
but live in my shoes,
I grin and bare more than I care to share,
Things have gotten better,
but i'm getting too old,
to be relying on this,
have i ruined everything,
hunni why can't you just come out,

it's so early but i can't sleep it's almost morning,
i guess the world is really coming to an end,
because we're just friends,
that's all we'll ever be,
why can't i accept that hinders me,
but something seems familiar,
almost as if everything is a simile,

this thought is a string of events the names i dare not say,
no one reads these anyway,
maybe i shouldn't care,
but when collusion is rare,
i have to make the best,
not just sit and stare,
today was a blast from the past,

in the short time i've been gone,
so much has changed,
lives just are not the same.

As Days Go By

Days go by,
The nights grow longer,
The loneliness settles in,
And every time the thought of you finds its way to my eyes,
Tears seem to fall from the memory of you and me,
Those were the days when I felt alive

[Chorus]
This is for you,
All these words I hold true,
Without you I am nothing,
The last song I ever sang to you,
Still sends chills up my spine,
This is for you because I will always,
Love You

When the rainclouds start to become unbearable,
I will still be there whenever you need a hand,
I'm not going far,
Because you will always be a part of me


[Chorus]
This is for you,
All these words I hold true,
Without you I am nothing,
The last song I ever sang to you,
Still sends chills up my spine,
This is for you because I will always,
Love You

Time Machine

Do you ever wish that you could peer into the future?
To find that there is no need to worry,
Because you can stop any danger before it happens,
Do you ever wish that you could change the past?
So you can live without regret.
Because you live your life as if you are perfect,
As time runs out

[Chorus]
Time machines won't save you,
Every decision made is set in stone,
Nothing you can do to erase the past,
Or glimpse into the future,
We skate through this life,
When we should live each day as if it is our last

My heart has turned cold,
From all the torture,
From all the trepidation,
And all the isolation.

Thoughts Folded in Half (In My Back Pocket)

I took a walk around town last night,
Cold and alone,
Following the path from my memories,
I remember why I never went anywhere on my own,
I never liked being by myself,
Because I wanted someone to care,
All my life I have searched for that person,
But people seem to leave my life,
Just as quick as they came in

[Chorus]
I stopped by hoping you'd let me inside,
But instead you slammed the door in my face,
Drew your fists and cursed my name,
You left me wondering how you can treat me like this,
When the only thing I've ever done,
Was "care too much".

But of course no one realizes my pain,
Because when I share my thoughts,
People get hurt because I never seem to do anything right,
My intentions were always for the best,
In fact my heart hurts more to know,
The pain I cause someone else,
Because that is what I dread,
Making someone else feel what I live through

[Chorus]
I stopped by hoping you'd let me inside,
But instead you slammed the door in my face,
Drew your fists and cursed my name,
You left me wondering how you can treat me like this,
When the only thing I've ever done,
Was "care too much".

Cloak and Dagger

Sometimes I wish that I couldn't feel,
Because all this heartache pushes me to the edge,
I lost everything when you left,
And now I'm staggering,
Trying to hold my ground

[Chorus]
Do you even notice me anymore?
When you sleep at night,
Do I even cross your mind?
When you said I love you,
Did you truly mean it?
You gave him so many chances,
But you gave me none,
I feel worthless after all you have done,
I was just trying to not bleed from the inside,
But insult added to injury and now I'm left dying

I have forgiven you,
But it hurts me still,
Because my feelings won't leave,
I guess I am not the one,
But my heart told me otherwise,
I can't always be right I suppose,
So why does this have to hurt so much?
When life supposedly goes on

[Chorus]
Do you even notice me anymore?
When you sleep at night,
Do I even cross your mind?
When you said I love you,
Did you truly mean it?
You gave him so many chances,
But you gave me none,
I feel worthless after all you have done,
I was just trying to not bleed from the inside,
But insult added to injury and now I'm left dying

Cell Phones and Table Lights

The fire within us,
Our determination destroys our barriers,
We come alive in the moment we dreamed,
This feeling overcomes us,
We cry out every thought,
Every emotion,
We can hear our hearts beat,
The lights flash in our eyes,
We look for something to hold on to,
But we fall through,
Straight through

[Chorus]
Drowning myself in my music,
I try to avoid the unavoidable,
I heard our song again...
But it seems as if the meaning is dead,
The only sound I hear,
Is my own tears falling,
So sick and tired of it all,
I think I'm going insane,
All this hits my brain,
That this must be the end

Walking the path of life,
Fighting through the obstacles,
The only object of my affection was you,
My only inspiration was you,
Now I'm finding my way blind,
Because there is no light to illuminate this darkness


[Chorus]
Drowning myself in my music,
I try to avoid the unavoidable,
I heard our song again...
But it seems as if the meaning is dead,
The only sound I hear,
Is my own tears falling,
So sick and tired of it all,
I think I'm going insane,
All this hits my brain,
That this must be the end

In and Out

You walked into my life,
Just as fast as you came in,
You left me hanging by a thread,
I would have been better off dead,
The path to my heart,
Ripped and torn apart.

[Chorus]
It is said that fate controls your life,
That everything happens for a reason,
That if it is meant to be,
It will work out,
But I believe love is SUICIDE,
Because there is pain for what cause?
You slowly die inside,
When all along you find that love is vile

I have given up on you,
Because you could care less about me,
You lied to me,
You broke me down,
You looked for revenge,
And you tore my heart out,
I loved you with everything in me,
And yet you betrayed me,
Love is Death

[Chorus]
It is said that fate controls your life,
That everything happens for a reason,
That if it is meant to be,
It will work out,
But I believe love is SUICIDE,
Because there is pain for what cause?
You slowly die inside,
When all along you find that love is vile

Omega

These friendships I hold dear,
The brothers I have found,
The cause for my motivation,
To reinvent my way of thinking,
To find in this my purpose,
Through ATO,
May my dreams come true

[Chorus]
This is my family,
The support,
The closeness,
The drive,
We are as one,
This is a God-given right,
To do unto others,
As they have done unto us,
To bring out the best we can offer,
To care like no other,
I'm proud to be,
An Alpha Tau Omega Brother

There is meaning in everything,
And through this learning,
We seem to find who we are,
Or at least the proper principles,
To live life by,
Nothing can compare,
This is for real

[Chorus]
This is my family,
The support,
The closeness,
The drive,
We are as one,
This is a God-given right,
To do unto others,
As they have done unto us,
To bring out the best we can offer,
To care like no other,
I'm proud to be,
An Alpha Tau Omega Brother

"To know no North, no South, no East, no West",
But to be united as one.

Day By Day

Hoping to do the right thing,
Not wanting to make a mistake,
Praying for the courage needed,
To let go and stop the worrying,
To follow your dreams,
To smile when things look bleak,
To move on and learn to love again,
To break the monotony,
Void the spaces,
And follow the path less taken

[Chorus]
Live day by day,
You have no control over what comes your way,
Don't give up hope,
There is more to this than that which meets the eye,
You can't go through life,
With your eyes towards the ground,
Look up and see what is in your path,
This is your life,
Why throw away what you have?

This is a call,
For those who think there is nothing left,
There is always someone waiting,
They will be there whenever you may need them,
They will always listen to you,
They see through the barriers,
They can see into your heart,
Don't let go,
They've been there from the start.

[Chorus]
Live day by day,
You have no control over what comes your way,
Don't give up hope,
There is more to this than that which meets the eye,
You can't go through life,
With your eyes towards the ground,
Look up and see what is in your path,
This is your life,
Why throw away what you have?

Torn Inside

I found this girl who seemed to stop time,
With one look at me she made my heart melt,
But the thing is this girl is my best friends love,
No matter how bad I want her,
I could never do that to him,
I don't want to tear them apart

[Chorus]
Why couldn't we have met in a different place,
Where past feelings wouldn't stand in our way,
When will it be my time to live,
To feel alive,
I think I died inside,
But somehow you brought me back to life,
You were there all along,
Right in front of me

It kills me that I'm holding back,
Because you became an important part of my life,
Something I think I need,
This raging storm inside of me,
Feeling as if it's overtaking me,
You were my lifesaver,
Pulling me in,
With your words encouraging me,
When all I thought I could do was cry.

Why couldn't we have met in a different place,
Where past feelings wouldn't stand in our way,
When will it be my time to live,
To feel alive,
I think I died inside,
But somehow you brought me back to life,
You were there all along,
Right in front of me

Fires From Within

Why is it life has to be so difficult,
When you open one door another one closes,
There can be no medium,
It's always one or the other,
And it makes me sad to know,
That I can't win no matter what direction I go

[Chorus]
Why do we fight?
Why do we continue to want to live?
When all that we get is the pain that envelops our souls,
And plots our lives,
To drive through fires of malevolence,
Each new day brings us closer to our death,
When all we can do is hold our breath

I only wish to do my best,
To put forth the effort,
Live step by step,
Hoping to leave an impression,
Hope to fufill my cause,
Because my one life is all I've got

[Chorus]
Why do we fight?
Why do we continue to want to live?
When all that we get is the pain that envelops our souls,
And plots our lives,
To drive through fires of malevolence,
Each new day brings us closer to our death,
When all we can do is hold our breathbreath

Spread the Ashes (Realization)

My life is spinning out of control,
This wasn't my idea for us,
How is it so easy for you to move on,
And so hard for me not to hold on,
You tell me you've found someone new,
And all I can do is smile,
But behind it fall the tears.

[CHORUS]
Days pass me by,
And I'm still stuck on you,
Four months ago you left my side,
And I've given up hope,
There is nothing I can do,
I thought I'd always be with you,
But I see,
You never truly loved me,
Not the way I loved you

I can't sleep because I dream of you,
I stay awake to bare how much I miss you,
But I see I mean nothing to you,
I can't just be your friend,
I'm in too deep and I wish it would end,
My days are dark,
There's no turning back,
You chose this for us,
And now this is the life I lead

Days pass me by,
And I'm still stuck on you,
Four months ago you left my side,
And I've given up hope,
There is nothing I can do,
I thought I'd always be with you,
But I see,
You never truly loved me,
Not the way I loved you

The Mistake

I'm an emotional wreck,
My words pierce through like knives,
I mean none of it,
Because my words were meant to care,
My stares were looks of anguish and sympathy,
For all you've been through and how much I hurt you,
And what I regret most is pulling you through hell,
The hell which I live each day,
I took you with me when I should have been mute,
And ignored the pain inside,
I'm sorry for everything,
I truly never meant to take you with me,
And I really do care about you,
But sometimes I have a weird way of showing it.
I know I'm hard to understand,
I don't blame you for giving up,
I'm not worth the effort,
Not worth the cause,
You were right to move on,
At least I can't cause your tears,
I just hope you remember the good times that we used to share,
I don't want you to remember me as...
THE MISTAKE

My Pain

This pain I constantly feel,
I deserve somehow,
To see things clearer,
I wipe the sweat from my eyes,
My punishment is to sit and watch,
Because I can't do anything.

[Chorus]
Sometimes I feel like running so I avoid falling,
And breaking hearts never meant to hurt so much,
I wish I was perfect,
Then I would be anything,
But causing catastrophe.

Forget me,
You're better off not knowing me,
And thinking about all the pain you feel,
I'm so sorry,
I wish you knew how badly I want,
To go back and see things through
Sometimes I feel like running so I avoid falling,
And breaking hearts never meant to hurt so much,
I wish I was perfect,
Then I would be anything,
But causing catastophe.

More Than I Can Give

I hope that wherever life takes you,
You go with a smile on your face and an easiness on your heart,
I hope you find out who you are and what you want to be,
I hope you see all you have to offer and rest easy

(Chorus)
I hope one day you find love,
More than you could ever hope for,
And more than I can give,
I hope he treats you with respect and dignity,
Bring you to your knees as you fill with joy,
I hope you end up happy,
Enjoying life and living for each new day

Wherever you go you will never be alone,
I'll be in the shadows helping you through the darkness,
Invisible to your sight,
Hold your head high,
You deserve so much,
More than I can give

(Chorus)
I hope one day you find love,
More than you could ever hope for,
And more than I can give,
I hope he treats you with respect and dignity,
Bring you to your knees as you fill with joy,
I hope you end up happy,
Enjoying life and living for each new day

Falling Into Despair

I'm stuck within the crevices,
Of a life once past,
I've left behind all I've ever known and had,
And I feel so alone,
I've taken a different path,
Hopefully in the right direction

[Chorus]
Now all I've got are memories,
Of now forsaken tendencies,
I feel I'm slowly fading,
Because it's so hard to move along,
When everything I've ever loved,
Is no longer here,
This distance I bare,
To cleanse these shreds of humanity,
That I used to share

They say the rest is unwritten,
But that's what is the cause of my fear,
I'm in a foreign land,
Losing my grip on my sanity,
While everyone sits idly-by,
Because they have no idea

[Chorus]
Now all I've got are memories,
Of now forsaken tendencies,
I feel I'm slowly fading,
Because it's so hard to move along,
When everything I've ever loved,
Is no longer here,
This distance I bare,
To cleanse these shreds of humanity,
That I used to share

Not What I Mean

This may be my new beginning,
Life had different plans for you and I,
So then why is it so hard to let you go?

(Chorus)
Who do I look to?
No one can take your place,
But you aren't here anymore,
You changed for him and you left me alone,
When I screamed aloud,
All I heard was my own echo

I used to think I had a purpose,
But now I'm unsure,
I live life day by day,
But that's not enough to hold these tears back,
They still break through,
Even though I've become numb to the pain

(Chorus)
Who do I look to?
No one can take your place,
But you aren't here anymore,
You changed for him and you left me alone,
When I screamed aloud,
All I heard was my own echo

The Day I Lost You

This is the outlet from my pain,
The thoughts,
The memories,
I write with my blood,
I can't sleep because I'm reliving my mistakes,
It's been that way since the day I lost you...

(Chorus)
I'm out around town,
Marveling the beauty night brings,
Wishing you could see what I see,
Wishing you'd walk beside me like you used to do,
If only these words could set everything right

I look to the sky hoping that the answers for the questions I hold inside,
Are somehow written in plain view,
But life isn't that easy,
Time tends to heal all wounds,
But time has made me bleed

I'm lost in this world I thought I knew,
I've left the path I was accustomed to,
And now I'm confused as to what to do,
I struggle to breathe,
But I carry on

Reality is a Dream

I wake up each day from these dreams of my memories,
I'm waiting by the phone just hoping you'll call,
Spending nights looking through your old pictures and old letters,
Praying that things won't always be this way.

(Chorus)
I remember all the times we spent together,
Just looking into each others' eyes,
Because words weren't needed for what we were feeling,
All our troubles melted away,
It was just you and me and that's how I always wanted it to be

I hope this isn't forever,
Because with every new day,
I think of you,
Wishing you and me could be us and we,
I've missed you oh so much

(Chorus)
I remember all the times we spent together,
Just looking into each others' eyes,
Because words weren't needed for what we were feeling,
All our troubles melted away,
It was just you and me and that's how I always wanted it to be

I will be there for you no matter what,
This love within me is here to stay,
I'm here with open arms for when you are ready to give your heart,
Back to me...

My Worst Memory

Will I ever get over this?
Can I ever forgive myself?
I can't hide the shame or forget the pain I've caused,
In the back of my mind it creeps inside,
I wish I could change everything...

(Chorus)
It lasted one moment,
But the memory lives on,
And I find myself trying to carry on,
Because of my mistake I've been left alone,
I don't think I can make it like this,
Please come back to me,
You were my everything

I'd do anything to take this back,
This is not the way,
I wanted this to be,
I'm sorry for all of this,
I can't do this on my own,
There's nothing left for me,
I need you but I can't be with you.

Puzzle Pieces

When the skies turn gray,
And the rain begins to fall,
As the tears roll down my face,
And I think there is no point in trying,
I remember I have you,
And I am oh so lucky to be alive,
With you in my life

(Chorus)
When the world tries to attack me,
Stab me in the heart just to see me bleed,
When it tries to tear my life apart,
All I have to do is think of you,
And believe I'll make it through

I give and I give,
They push and pull,
Battered and broken I stagger on,
With you in my heart,
I can face my dreams,
I can breathe the toxic air,
That burns my lungs,
But I push forward,
Nothing can stop me from being with you

(Chorus)
When the world tries to attack me,
Stab me in the heart just to see me bleed,
When it tries to tear my life apart,
All I have to do is think of you,
And believe I'll make it through

I went through the pain,
As I waited for the sky to light up,
And fill the Earth with its radiant light,
Filling the void,
Taking that which is broken,
Mending it,
Like a puzzle,
I fell to pieces,
But you put me back together


(Chorus)
When the world tries to attack me,
Stab me in the heart just to see me bleed,
When it tries to tear my life apart,
All I have to do is think of you,
And believe I'll make it through

Blind

My eyes were blind to this,
Because I didn't realize the things I put you through,
But now my eyes are open and I see everything,
Words alone can't express this sorrow I feel in my heart,
But the only thing I can do is try my best to make it up to you

(Chorus)
You're everything I need and seeing you sad,
Can bring me down,
I just want to see you smile and I would do anything,
To have your heart

I stay up late thinking about the words I say,
and how they affect you,
I love you more than anything,
And I will prove it to you because I want to

I'm sorry for everything,
I wish I could take it all back,
But just know it was only because I care so much,
And I wanted to help you be the best you can,
I never intended to anger you,
I just wanted to show you that,
I have concern for you and I only want,
The best for you,
I love you more than words can describe

Second Chances

In this time of second chances,
Midnight romances,
We look to the sky,
For the answers in our minds,
Our destiny was written in the stars,
Long before we'd heal from these scars,
Take this as you will,
But my love has never been so real

And we keep an eye on each other,
Hoping that we'll be,
Together an eternity,
Breathing in deeply,
And this sinking feeling has gone away,
Forever is a long time,
But as long as you're with me it'll be alright

And my love I'm never far,
Close to you,
Always in your heart,
Gone are the days you felt alone...

We will always find a way,
Giving up is not a choice,
Make the best of your life,
Because you never know when things can go wrong,
But as long as I am alive,
I will save you,
I would die,
Give a sacrifice to prove to you,
That I am always by your side,
Through it all.

Now and Forever

Every second with you feels like an eternity,
Whenever you are with me,
All my troubles seem to fade away,
When I look into your eyes,
I see everything I have ever needed

(Chorus)
I'm lucky to have you near and close by,
Without you I would be lost,
Life is impossible without you being mine,
I love you more than life itself,
You are my angel

I would fight to keep you with me,
I would give up everything just to prove to you,
That I would go through hell and back,
To put a smile on your face,
And even though this world like to stab you in the heart,
You are safe here with me

(Chorus)
I'm lucky to have you near and close by,
Without you I would be lost,
Life is impossible without you being mine,
I love you more than life itself,
You are my angel

I'm never giving up,
I'm never giving in,
My love for you shall never die,
You have my heart,
Now and forever,
Always...

Everything or Nothing

There comes a time when we all find,
That someone that completes them,
When we fall head over heels,
Just to please them,
You found me and proved to me how you truly felt,
Showing me I mean more to you than life itself,
You seem to know how to make me smile,
You brighten my day and always know what to say,
To make me feel unbelievable

(Chorus)
If I could give you anything,
I would let you see through my eyes,
To show you I love you more than anyone or anything,
You gave me something no on else has,
You gave me your love,
And that's all I ever need

I love you so much,
I would die for you,
I want you happy and smiling,
And I'll do whatever it takes,
I want to be with you forever,
And I will be here with you for eternity,
I love you baby doll,
You're my everything

Two Weeks Cold

I'm here waiting for you,
Waiting for the day you return,
Wanting to hold you close,
Missing your voice,
Hoping to see your smile again soon,
Till the end

(Chorus)
You're so far away,
And the distance is so great,
But when the light turns to dark,
My heart is still with you,
And we still see the same night sky,
Think of me,
And I'll think of you,
We'll make it through

This is only temporary,
You'll be back someday,
And I'll run to you,
Pick you up and spin you around,
Whisper in your ear,
"It's not the same without you here."

From My Heart To My Head

They say when it rains it pours,
But when you're with me,
All I see is sunshine,
When you smile,
It lights up my world,
Let me be your alcohol tonight,
Drink me up and watch me spin,
We'll get drunk off this happiness

(Chorus)
Hold me tight,
Don't you ever let go,
I need you more than you'll ever know,
Save me from this cruel world,
Because without you,
I have nothing left to live for

We could dance the night away,
Or watch the sky turn red as the sun sets,
Wishing this day would never end,
Because forever just isn't long enough

(Chorus)
Hold me tight,
Don't you ever let go,
I need you more than you'll ever know,
Save me from this cruel world,
Because without you,
I have nothing left to live for

I've looked deep into your eyes,
And thought to myself,
She's the one I want,
To spend the rest of my life with,
I don't know what I would do without you,
But I do know,
I love you,
And I always...
Will be yours.

Nights Spent Alone

I never knew that the skies could be so dull,
But when you aren't here,
Nothing is as bright as it seems,
And now I sit alone,
Wishing for another chance,
But I'd rather see you happy,
And though it would tear me to pieces,
That is what I truly want,
Because whether you know it or not,
I still care and I'll always be there

(Chorus)
And night after night,
When I lay down,
The thoughts of you rush into my head,
And I can't help but wonder,
Could there be any other way?

I miss you,
I think about you all the time,
And even though you feel like,
I'm the worst person,
I truly care and I'll always be there

Highway To Life

A tragedy approaching,
All that's left are memories of the ash-filled sky,
With the sun in absence,
And thorns embedded in our eyes,
So we reach for hopelessness,
Lost between the lines of blasphemy

(Chorus)
Wipe the tears from your face,
As the sorrow drips down your cheek,
From all the years of neglect,
We brace for impact,
As they deny your intentions,
Stolen by insecurity,
Ripped and torn apart

We're running from this agony,
A breath of fresh air,
Sunken deep beneath these layers of tyranny,
Screaming at the top of our lungs,
Nothing can stop the bleeding,
A heart mended through time,
All I had was you

(Chorus)
Wipe the tears from your face,
As the sorrow drips down your cheek,
From all the years of neglect,
We brace for impact,
As they deny your intentions,
Stolen by insecurity,
Ripped and torn apart

Push me,
Pull me,
Push me,
Pull me,

Kiss me,
Hold me,
Kiss me,
Hold me,

Help me breathe (You're all I need)

Always By Your Side

As we wait in line for our hearts to be ripped out,
We search for the light to illuminate this darkness,
That has held us down,
Show me the way,
And we'll ride this storm out

(Chorus)
You've been hurt,
You've been scared,
You've cried yourself to sleep,
But now you have me,
And I would do anything,
To wipe those tears from your eyes,
As I hold you close

With me you are never alone,
Never without me by your side,
Because I'm always there with open arms,
Waiting for you to run to me,
Put your arms around me and say,
"I'm glad I have you baby,
You mean everything to me"

(Chorus)
You've been hurt,
You've been scared,
You've cried yourself to sleep,
But now you have me,
And I would do anything,
To wipe those tears from your eyes,
As I hold you close

Never on your own,
Never on your own,

I am yours,
And yours alone

I am yours,
And yours alone.

Overthinking

Every time I close my eyes,
I see your face smiling so bright,
And I hold onto these memories,
Because you've changed my life,
You've taken away all the years I've spent in pain,
And melted them away,
With just a simple gaze into my eyes,
When I look into your heart,
I know you and I were destined for each other,
You've always been there,
Even when times were tough,
And you hung on,
Keeping your heart set on me,
With all that you have done for me,
I can only wonder...
Have I done the same for you?

Love Till The End

One day,
Through it all,
You'll see my reflection,
Lines drawn in the sand,
Memories may fade,
But what we try and ascertain,
Is this for real?
We fear that which we can't grasp,
When the past comes back to haunt us,
We cower in the darkness,
Running from the light,
The light meant to guide our way home.

(Chorus)
It's the little things
They make all the difference,
When things appear black and white,
I ponder the question at hand,
Wondering if this is what is destined for me,
I hold back these tears,
Thinking back upon the last night we shared,
Hoping it wasn't for nothing,
Because I've already written your name by mine,
In the stars,
We're I've put all my dreams,
Praying you'll always be with me

I couldn't do this alone,
My will would be lost,
And I would have nothing,
I need you now more than ever.

Feelings Within

Do you know
That every night before I rest my head,
I close my eyes and think of you,
As a smile slips upon my face,
When I dream of you,
My heart skips a beat,
Then I try and tell you,
But the words just can't describe,
These feelings for you,
They're strong,
They're deep,
They're EVERLASTING

My Apologies

I'm sorry for everything,
I wish I could take it all back,
I didn't mean the words I said,
And I never wanted to make you mad,
I can see where you are coming from,
And you do have a point,
But know that I do trust you,
I just need to look at things differently.

(Chorus)
Sometimes we don't look at the whole picture,
We just see what we want,
But there's more to everything,
And we have to take it all in,
I see I'm wrong,
and to you,
I give my apologies

Now that I'm looking back on this,
I feel like such an ass,
I will make it up to you,
No matter what the task,
Please forgive me,
Now I see,
The error of my ways

Mended

When times would get tough,
And it seems as if there is no way out,
As I scream out,
For someone to save me,
To fix my heart,
That had been broken and torn apart,
But you came and brightened my days,
You changed the way I look at things,
For once I'm following my dreams,
You are everything I needed,
And there is no way in hell,
I'm going to let you go.

Long Way Home Again

All we have ever known,
Has left us alone,
The moments we thought we left behind,
Have kept us from running on empty,
We have come so close and yet we're still so far,
All we have are memories that we shared,
And thoughts that linger

(Chorus)
I'm so far from home again,
It's been so long since I looked into your eyes,
And told you how much you mean to me,
But I'm coming home again,
Nothing can keep us apart,
Because you're always close to me in my heart

Though the sky may seem dark and empty,
Look at the stars and think of me,
Because somewhere in the world,
I'm looking at the same sky,
So you're never alone,
I am always by your side,
even if I'm a million miles away.

(Chorus)
I'm so far from home again,
It's been so long since I looked into your eyes,
And told you how much you mean to me,
But I'm coming home again,
Nothing can keep us apart,
Because you're always close to me in my heart

If I could make one wish,
It would be to have you here with me,
Cause' I'm so lonely girl,
But you know how to make me smile,
So in the end,

I miss you now more than ever,
I miss you now more than ever,
I miss you now more than ever.

Through It All

Even faced with this tragedy,
Even though my heart has bled,
I still want you,
You're my everything,
I know we all make mistakes,
And I'm willing to look past this,
Because without you I can not live,
I couldn't face the world,
Head on,
Because you are all I've got,
I've prayed for someone to save me,
And I'm not about,
To throw my miracle away,
I messed up before too,
But you waited for me,
I know the pain you felt,
I've experienced it myself,
And I want to work this out,
I would do anything,
To keep you with me,
Forever and eternity,
All I want,
Is your unconditional love,
Without it I am nothing

Fighting Against The Grain

Going through life,
With this forced smile,
I try to look at the bright-side,
It's hard without you

(Chorus)
I will wait forever,
Because I know you and I are meant to be,
Why can't you see that this isn't the way,
It's supposed to be?
When times are rough,
I'll be here,
Because that's all I can do,
Is care

I wait for your call,
Every ring excites me,
But in the end,
It's always someone else,
What happened to caring?
Now that you're gone,
Is when I need you the most,
I can't do this alone

(Chorus)
I will wait forever,
Because I know you and I are meant to be,
Why can't you see that this isn't the way,
It's supposed to be?
When times are rough,
I'll be here,
Because that's all I can do,
Is care

I miss you,
You were everything to me,
The light of my life,
My pride and joy,
Can't you see that I'm empty without you,
Because you...
Completed me.

When I Come Home

My heart can only bleed so much,
I'd rather put a gun to my head,
I can wipe away your tears,
But you have to tear down your barriers first,
I'm here for you,
Never leaving you alone

(Chorus)
When I come back for you,
Will you embrace me?
When I pull you close to me,
Will you hold me tightly?
And when I look into your eyes,
And tell you I love you,
Will you say it back?

With all of this uncertainty,
You may wonder why I keep trying,
To you my heart belongs,
You mean the world to me

(Chorus)
When I come back for you,
Will you embrace me?
When I pull you close to me,
Will you hold me tightly?
And when I look into your eyes,
And tell you I love you,
Will you say it back?

These nights I lay awake,
Alone,
Praying,
When I haven't prayed since I asked God,
To bring me you,
Life's too short to let this sleep,
But this love,
Is way to deep,
To just give up hope

(Chorus)
When I come back for you,
Will you embrace me?
When I pull you close to me,
Will you hold me tightly?
And when I look into your eyes,
And tell you I love you,
Will you say it back?

I miss you more,
More than you'll ever know

Close To Me

You've always been there for me,
Through thick and thin,
You never gave up on me,
And you promised you never would,
Sometimes I let things get to me,
And forget that you said you'd never leave me,
I tend to over-think things,
Because I try to make things perfect,
Though I know I can't,
Sometimes I don't know what to do,
Because I never felt a love so true,
Until the day I met you,
And now that I feel it,
I fear the loss of it,
Because I've never been happier in all my life,
And I haven't had the chance,
To spend time with you,
And that has put us in a strain,
But we can start again,
Because things are different,
I never regret asking you to be with me,
Because it was the right decision,
I'm sorry or hurting you,
Or for making you think I didn't care,
Because you are my world,
And you mean everything to me,
So I will always hold you close to my heart
Forever and Always.

Forget Me Not

Blue skies,
Sunsets,
I stand here waiting,
Forever if I have to,
With open arms,
Longing for your touch,
I'll embrace you with all the love I feel,
In my heart I'll always be yours

(Chorus)
In the worst of times,
I'll always be by your side,
When skies turn gray,
And the world turns dark,
I will open your eyes,
And bring you to the light,
Within me is everything you need,
And in time you will understand,
And I shall wait for you

Don't hide behind your pain
Rise above it,
And remember that within you,
Lies all the answers,
Follow your heart,
It will never let you down

(Chorus)
In the worst of times,
I'll always be by your side,
When skies turn gray,
And the world turns dark,
I will open your eyes,
And bring you to the light,
Within me is everything you need,
And in time you will understand,
And I shall wait for you

I will always be close,
I will always care,
I will always love you,
No matter what you do,
It won't fade away,
I will be with you through everything...

(Chorus)
In the worst of times,
I'll always be by your side,
When skies turn gray,
And the world turns dark,
I will open your eyes,
And bring you to the light,
Within me is everything you need,
And in time you will understand,
And I shall wait for you

My World

Broken by these dreams,
Haunted by these memories,
You put the pieces back together,
I'd fight for you forever,
You always know how to make me better,
I need you with me now,

How could I keep you waiting?
When you've always been right there,
Praying I would finally see,
That we were meant to be,
And even tho it's been so long,
You are still my everything,
And you mean the world to me.

I'll See You Through The Storm

Clouds gathering,
Storm rushing in,
The rain pelts my face,
But I won't give in,
The wind so violent,
Tossing me back and forth,
I push forward,
I'll lead on

(Chorus)
No matter what happens,
I'll always be there,
No matter what is said,
I will always care,
When you want to cry,
I will be your comfort,
When you want to get away,
I will be your escape,
I will stand with you,
Till the very end,
Through it all,
Always and forever

This life can bring you down,
Put you in your place,
Make you want to give up,
But trust in me,
I will help you through,
Together we can make it,
I will see your smile shine through

(Chorus)
No matter what happens,
I'll always be there,
No matter what is said,
I will always care,
When you want to cry,
I will be your comfort,
When you want to get away,
I will be your escape,
I will stand with you,
Till the very end,
Through it all,
Always and forever

You're oh so beautiful,
And I want to hold you,
As long as I can,
My heart is in your hands,
I will follow you,,
And I will be near when you need me most,
Live,
Love,
Life,
Breathe,
See,
Believe,
I love you and I always will...

Love and Faith

Never give up on your dreams,
Keep your hopes alive,
There's a plan for all of us,
We all have our own path in life,
And we'll meet again,
Maybe sooner than you know...

(Chorus)
You never gave up on me,
And you let me know that you were there for me,
Now I would wait forever,
Just to prove how much,
I truly love you,
You are my life,
My soul,
And one day,
Maybe you'll realize,
That you're my world

When fall turns to winter,
And the snow covers the ground,
I'll be your warmth,
Your comfort,
When you feel like giving up on it all,
DON'T,
Because I'll support you through everything,
To you my heart belongs

(Chorus)
You never gave up on me,
And you let me know that you were there for me,
Now I would wait forever,
Just to prove how much,
I truly love you,
You are my life,
My soul,
And one day,
Maybe you'll realize,
That you're my world

I've written so many songs,
But none as deep as this,
Behind every word is a message,
"I'm lost without you,
I'm not the same,
I wish there was another way,
I miss you so much"
I just want to hear you say,
"I need you because I'm madly in love with you,
Take my hand and never let me go,
Let's run away,
All I want...
Is you in my life"


(Chorus)
You never gave up on me,
And you let me know that you were there for me,
Now I would wait forever,
Just to prove how much,
I truly love you,
You are my life,
My soul,
And one day,
Maybe you'll realize,
That you're my world.

Through and Through

Broken by these dreams,
Haunted by these memories,
Looking back on this,
I never thought I could feel this way,
When I had given up hope,
You came into my life,
Surprising me with how alike we are,
And to think out of everyone you,
You chose me,
And I am so lucky,
To have your love,
It means everything,
I will never give up on you.

Summer Wish

You have no clue,
What I would do,
To have you again,
Everything that has happened,
Doesn't matter,
All I want,
All I need,
Is you...

(Chorus)
In my dreams,
All I see is you,
When I look at the sky,
All I think about is you,
When I watch the sun set,
I wish you were beside me,
When night falls,
I just want to hold you,
You are everything to me

The world told me to give up,
And let go,
But my heart,
Will always hold on,
What happened is in the past,
when I'm with you I feel so alive,
When I'm without you,
I feel so empty

(Chorus)
In my dreams,
All I see is you,
When I look at the sky,
All I think about is you,
When I watch the sun set,
I wish you were beside me,
When night falls,
I just want to hold you,
You are everything to me

Your smile has always lit up my life,
The joy you bring me,
Words can't describe,
If I could have one thing,
It would be to be without you,
Stuck wondering what I should do,
Give it a chance,
It only takes,
Just a little bit.

Another Day

Everytime I wake,
I see your face,
Just the thought of you,
Gives me hope,
Keeps me going,
Because life can be so brutal

(Chorus)
I have never felt so strong,
About what I feel,
But in my heart,
I have learned to listen,
But it took pain,
For me to realize,
Just how much I need you...

People may say I'm crazy,
They may think I'm stupid,
But I don't care what they think,
They aren't me,
They don't know me,,
But yet they can judge me?
So hypocritical,
I know who I am,
And I'll be damned,
If anyone tries to ruin,
That which I worked so hard for

(Chorus)
I have never felt so strong,
About what I feel,
But in my heart,
I have learned to listen,
But it took pain,
For me to realize,
Just how much I need you...

Always and Forever

There's this sense of hope in the air,
The smell of true love all around,
These days grow better and better,
Time has a way of bringing out the best,
And puts us all to the test,
As we find ourselves,
Holding on to each other so tightly,
These feelings that flood our minds,
Just bring us closer together,
When things look bleak,
We find that our love,
Will never fail

(Chorus)
I've never been so happy in all my life,
Never felt the way I do,
Never felt that my love could be so real,
Everything you do,
Everything you say,
As long as it's from you,
It always brightens my day,
When the pain seemed like too much to bear,
You came and dried my tears,
Tears that are no more,
Because you have changed my way of thought,
You put your faith in me,
And I am better because of it

They say it couldn't be done,
That I couldn't be the one,
But we're proving it to everybody,
That you and I were meant to be,
That nothing can keep us away,
We're in too deep,
Never going to give up on you,
This happiness,
This joy,
All comes from you

(Chorus)
I've never been so happy in all my life,
Never felt the way I do,
Never felt that my love could be so real,
Everything you do,
Everything you say,
As long as it's from you,
It always brightens my day,
When the pain seemed like too much to bear,
You came and dried my tears,
Tears that are no more,
Because you have changed my way of thought,
You put your faith in me,
And I am better because of it

I promise you,
That I'd give my life,
To hold you in my arms forever,
Saving you from this world,
I'm here,
Forever and Always.