I was going to send you a letter in the mail, but I see just how much I mean to you. So instead I'm going to post what I wrote to you for the world to see. I'm tired of hiding my feelings inside just so I don't hurt anyone's feelings. Fuck that noise, I'm not hiding what I feel any longer. Here is what I meant for you to see.
February 27, 2010
What's up? It's been a long, long time. I felt the need to write you a letter considering I never did write you back. Sorry it took me five years to respond, I'm kinda slow lol. How's life treating you? School, boys, etc.?
I'm getting by I suppose. I don't do much of anything, work, school, chill at home. It gets pretty old after a while, gets annoying sometimes too (you know how my parents can be). It really sucks because I don't have any friends here, so I pretty much live in isolation. I don't talk to anyone from home really either, no one seems to want to talk to me from there anyway, aside from Libby who usually calls me fucked up and sometimes Jamie. Other than that I don't talk to anyone.
I do play my 360 a lot though because I have a few friends from home who still play it. We play almost everyday on Modern Warfare 2 and we're pretty good lol. So yeah, I'm being a loser here in North Carolina. I've been gone for like seven months and it feels like everything has changed. I miss Ohio a lot and all of our friends. I talked to Mikey on his birthday-ish and he was telling me about his stripper girl haha. You'll probably get to see him before I do, since I won't be able to come visit home during the summer.
I miss you like crazy, I know I don't talk to you at all really anymore. I just feel like you don't want to talk to me at times since you never call and when I text you, you always seem distracted. I really miss talking to you though, I have no one here so it gets pretty lonely, lol. I guess that's one reason why I decided to write you, Facebook is impersonal and I didn't think you'd respond to an e-mail. Though I'm not sure you'll respond to this!
I know you have your own things you have to do and are probably a pretty busy lady. I just have to talk to someone and I can always talk to you. I'm such a horrible friend, don't even keep in contact. I've just had it pretty tough emotionally here for a while, but I'm starting to come back to my senses again.
It's really hard adjusting because everything here is so different. They make fun of me for saying I want "pop" lol. This town is pretty shitty! There is nothing to do here! Might be better when I get my car! I've been saving up, so next weekend I'm going car shopping. I'm pretty excited about that. PLUS it's getting warmer so soon I can take an hour and a half drive and be at the beach.
So anyway, that's pretty much what I've been into, which equates to not a whole lot, lol. I'm making it by, getting my life together so I can hopefully do something worthwhile with it. I've been working hard in school, kinda have to or else I'll have very few options left. I'm not sure where I'll end up school-wise but I'm doing the best I can now so that I'll end up with that which I sought in the beginning.
I'm so ready for summer. The cold here sucks because it gets close to freezing but doesn't snow, just rains! I'm watching Sherlock Holmes the movie, you should totally watch it, it is pretty funny.
Well, I won't bore you any longer with my drivel. I just want you to know that no matter what you are never alone and I'm always here for you. Always, take care and I hope to hear back from ya.
I'm getting by I suppose. I don't do much of anything, work, school, chill at home. It gets pretty old after a while, gets annoying sometimes too (you know how my parents can be). It really sucks because I don't have any friends here, so I pretty much live in isolation. I don't talk to anyone from home really either, no one seems to want to talk to me from there anyway, aside from Libby who usually calls me fucked up and sometimes Jamie. Other than that I don't talk to anyone.
I do play my 360 a lot though because I have a few friends from home who still play it. We play almost everyday on Modern Warfare 2 and we're pretty good lol. So yeah, I'm being a loser here in North Carolina. I've been gone for like seven months and it feels like everything has changed. I miss Ohio a lot and all of our friends. I talked to Mikey on his birthday-ish and he was telling me about his stripper girl haha. You'll probably get to see him before I do, since I won't be able to come visit home during the summer.
I miss you like crazy, I know I don't talk to you at all really anymore. I just feel like you don't want to talk to me at times since you never call and when I text you, you always seem distracted. I really miss talking to you though, I have no one here so it gets pretty lonely, lol. I guess that's one reason why I decided to write you, Facebook is impersonal and I didn't think you'd respond to an e-mail. Though I'm not sure you'll respond to this!
I know you have your own things you have to do and are probably a pretty busy lady. I just have to talk to someone and I can always talk to you. I'm such a horrible friend, don't even keep in contact. I've just had it pretty tough emotionally here for a while, but I'm starting to come back to my senses again.
It's really hard adjusting because everything here is so different. They make fun of me for saying I want "pop" lol. This town is pretty shitty! There is nothing to do here! Might be better when I get my car! I've been saving up, so next weekend I'm going car shopping. I'm pretty excited about that. PLUS it's getting warmer so soon I can take an hour and a half drive and be at the beach.
So anyway, that's pretty much what I've been into, which equates to not a whole lot, lol. I'm making it by, getting my life together so I can hopefully do something worthwhile with it. I've been working hard in school, kinda have to or else I'll have very few options left. I'm not sure where I'll end up school-wise but I'm doing the best I can now so that I'll end up with that which I sought in the beginning.
I'm so ready for summer. The cold here sucks because it gets close to freezing but doesn't snow, just rains! I'm watching Sherlock Holmes the movie, you should totally watch it, it is pretty funny.
Well, I won't bore you any longer with my drivel. I just want you to know that no matter what you are never alone and I'm always here for you. Always, take care and I hope to hear back from ya.
Love,
Jeff
Jeff
P.S.- I know you'll never read this...
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